- Does your current situation reflect who and where you want to be?
- Are you experiencing the type of relationships you want to be experiencing?
- Do you feel inspired or stagnant?
- How often do you check yo'self for misguided choices?
"Check yo'self before you wreck yo'self. Chiggity-check yo'self before you wriggity-wreck yo'self!" Yep, I'm quoting the rapper Ice Cube. And, according to the wisdom of the Urban Dictionary, what he means is "you better watch before you step over that thin line and get yo ass into serious trouble". Perhaps he's calling for a bit of self-reflection...? So before I drop the mic on 2015, I've been checkin' ma'self. I've taken a mental snapshot of my life to see if my current situation reflects who and where I want to be. I want to make sure that I'm doing exactly what I want to be doing, experiencing the type of relationships that I want to be experiencing, and feeling motivated and inspired rather than stagnant. I've also been asking myself which choices brought me "here"? And if I were given the opportunity would I choose differently, and why?
As I've been thinking about this year's life changes, relationship changes, and my own sense of personal growth (if any), I've realized that there's a thin line between self-reflection and honest self-reflection; the kind where you're willing to put a magnifying glass on your choices and assess how they've worked out for you. The kind where you reflect on the mindset that guided those decisions. Or which external influences might've effected your decision making process when your intuition was guiding you elsewhere.
As I sit back and "check ma'self" I've gotta admit that I still struggle at differentiating between intuition and mental chatter. And I still battle with what my heart wants to be true versus reality. And despite how open I am, I still fear total vulnerability and maintain these invisible walls of protection. And when I'm scared shitless of my wildest dreams (failure), I'll invest my energy in other things that, on the surface, present the illusion of happiness and success but, inside, leave me feeling unfulfilled.
My intention is that this kind of honest self-reflection will keep me from gettin' my ass into serious trouble in 2016. I refuse to wreck ma'self by remaining stuck in these same patterns. "Word is bond!"
Indie Girl Diary: writing prompt
Some of my most misguided choices in 2015 include __________ and now I feel __________.
Indie Girl-Talk: let's chat!
What new choices are you making for 2016?
