Turn-Ons: There's nothing like receiving validation from the mystical world.
Turn-Offs: I should've recorded our session. Sherene is a wealth of knowledge & a compassionate teacher.
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Happily Ever After
In my gut I know I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be in life, love and career. Okay, I may not be exactly where I wanna be. I may not have achieved all I wanna achieve. And my current circumstances may not feel like paradise even though it looks that way (LOL). But overall, I'm a pretty happy chick! And I'm certain of this: My own life choices, and even some unforeseen occurrences, have landed me in these present circumstances. I'm a forty-four year old, single (divorced) expat living on a private resort island in Turks & Caicos with a transient population of three hundred, teaching Pilates and Fitness to the rich and famous. But, I've got BIG DREAMS of a beautiful life partnership, family, entrepreneurial success, financial freedom and opportunities for lots of creative self-expression. As incongruous as those two worlds seem, I know in my gut that I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be. At least for now.
Even still, I had butterflies in my stomach as I shuffled the tarot deck. I was totally freaking out that the cards might reveal a truth that I wasn't ready for. I was bracing myself for the letdown that moving to Turks & Caicos was a big mistake. Or that love wasn't in my near future. Or in my future at all, god forbid! But, at the same time, I felt a little foolish at the thought of giving credence to a deck of cards. I breathed in deeply, inhaling the sweetness of nag champa and looked up into the star-filled Caribbean sky hoping that the Universe might offer me a little hope. Or at least validation. I exhaled and split the deck into three piles with a sense of foreboding.
But when Sherene systematically laid the cards across the table in a Celtic Cross formation and started interpreting the images, symbols and numbers, it was like listening to someone read my Indie Girl Diary aloud! There were no promising revelations or major letdowns; only confirmation that my intuition is, in fact, on point and that I'm more connected to my inner-self than I have been in a long time. They reminded me of my ability to experience the pain of loss and disruptive life changes with a sense of detachment; knowing that I have the power to use them for growth or stagnation. I didn't have that kind of clarity in the early stages of healing from divorce because everything I did was mired in so much fear, anxiety and self-doubt. I only ever expected failure. So the cards were an awesome reminder of the emotional progress I've made over the past seven years!
From that deck of seventy-eight cards (yes 78 possible iterations of my present, past and future), we pulled ten. And this is what synchronicity looks like (based on my memory & brief notes in my iPhone)...
Card #1 THE PRESENT (Page of Swords) Even though there's a part of me that feels frustrated and stuck right now, I'm still idealistic, passionate and confident about my life vision. I'm also a communicator that thrives on expressing my thoughts and ideas through writing and conversation. Finding my "tribe" is also important as I need to be surrounded by a group of like-minded people who support my vision and growth.
Card #2 THE CHALLENGE (2 of Swords) I feel overwhelmed with indecision. My reaction? Avoidance. But, if I really want to experience a "new beginning" I've got to get out of my own way by opening my mind to alternative ideas and viewpoints.
Card #3 THE PAST (5 of Swords) I am where I am mentally, physically and emotionally because of my experience with betrayal from an unfaithful partner, a sense of loss and defeat.
Card #4 THE FUTURE (9 of Wands) I'm really close to reaching a goal but am faced with a challenge that makes it really tempting to give up. Previous setbacks make me feel like I can't trust other people or even myself. But, if I choose to leave the past behind me and become more open-minded about the future I will definitely attain my goal.
Card #9 HOPES/FEARS (4 of Pentacles) My hopes and fears revolve around feeling financially stable and secure. I need to feel grounded!
Card #10 THE OUTCOME (The Star) Adversity has prompted some serious personal transformation in my life. I'm finally recognizing my worth and learning to trust my choices. I'm also learning to detach my ego from damaging memories which has helped me reconnect with my inner-self. As a result, I'm finally honoring the person that I am meant to be. This has prompted my desire to give back; helping other people transform their lives through adversity.
Sherene Schostak
Jungian Psychoanalyst, Astrologer, Metaphysician
